Infantes Dei: A Mystical Journey through Catholicism
Psalm 139:12-15
(E)ven the darkness is not dark to You, but the night shines like the day, for darkness is as light to You. For You formed my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are Your works, and I know this very well.…
Posted via Blogger on First Saturday, July 1, 2023 on The Feast of the Most Precious Blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ (Trad.). The Feast of Sts. Peter and Paul was on June 29th (Trad. & New). The message below is an email sent to a local Pastor in 2021 regarding a massive heat wave that killed a number of people on The Feast of Sts. Peter and Paul. Pope Francis, apologize and Catholicize.
Prayers needed.
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Date: Mon, Jun 28, 2021 at 8:58 PM
Subject: Important: The Heat Wave and the Relics of St. Peter
Hi Father,
The Lord helped me to understand more than I
knew when I left a voicemail for you yesterday. I sensed strongly that this
heat wave (which rose to 109 degrees) was a warning from the Lord regarding
Pope Francis relating to the Vigil of St. Peter (and Paul). My adrenaline was
racing as I was sensing "warning" via locution. I assumed that it was
regarding the Amazonian Synod, but I was not entirely correct. It was
specifically related to Pope Francis' decision to give away Holy relics of St.
Peter on June 29, 2019. I did not know that this had occurred as I do not keep
up on Church politics unless the Lord brings it to me directly. The Lord is
bringing this to me directly. God is angry regarding Pope Francis'
decision. The heat wave is a warning. "COVID-19 is like the
frogs" is what the Holy Spirit told me many months ago.
Like never before, we need the Rosary and the
Chaplet of Divine Mercy, daily from everyone who is able and reconciled with
Our Lord. Mary's Army or we will fail. Please share this with the Archbishop as
many parishes are not praying the Rosary at the level that they should be. The
Cathedral needs this more than most. Lord have mercy.
Blessings in Jesus, Mary & Joseph
"Following a solemn Mass on June
29, the liturgical feast of the Apostles Sts. Peter and Paul, the Pope
gave a delegation representing Orthodox Ecumenical Patriarch Bartholomew
of Constantinople a bronze reliquary containing nine bone fragments of the
first Pope.
The Orthodox Church, while having
a valid priesthood and sacraments, is not in full communion with Rome, in part
because it does not accept papal primacy. Although a mutual
withdrawal of excommunication between Rome and Constantinople
was issued at the end of the Second Vatican Council by Pope Paul VI
and Patriarch Athenagoras, Catholics do not pray for the
Orthodox patriarchs in their liturgy nor do the Orthodox pray for the Pope.
There is no sacramental intercommunion between the Churches." Pope Francis gives away relics of St. Peter to Orthodox
patriarch | News | Lifesitenews
·Dozens
dead in Washington, Oregon as heat wave takes its toll
·Canada sets new all-time heat record of 121
degrees amid unprecedented heat wave
June 29, 2021 at 10:48 p.m. EDT
According to world weather records expert
Maximiliano Herrera, the 121-degree reading also set a new world record for the
most extreme high temperature ever observed north of 45 degrees latitude.
Written on Father's Day and US Independence Day 2020.
I am sharing my experiences with you so that you may believe
and share it with others to save souls. I made grave mistakes many years ago. I
unknowingly attached to occult practices, including divination. I did not know
the laws or character of God. I did not know God. I also did not know that what
I was practicing was from the occult. What I did know is that what I was doing
was taught to me by my mother, and it was an effective way of communicating
with spirits from the other side. Prior to using these practices, I did not
believe in God. I only believed in science and what we can sense and perceive
in the world. This abruptly changed once I was able to talk with spirits.
Over time, I started experiencing hauntings of various sorts.
I did not understand that what I was experiencing was curse. For example, one
day I came home from work and my personology book had fallen from an extremely
high shelf near the ceiling and onto the floor. My cat had scratched the cover
repeatedly. It was such an extreme sight. The cover was very damaged as if my
cat had fought another animal. I was very disheartened as I like to keep my
belongings nice. It was strange, but I did not associate it with curse.
Another time, I was reading my personology book to a friend
who was visiting. I was so amazed at how accurate this book was describing
people and relationships in my life that I had to share this “wisdom”. As I was
reading the book, a large mirror in the bathroom began to fall and made a loud
sound. I went into the bathroom to see that it had somehow been freed from the
secure fastener and was leaning precariously on the edge of an open medicine
cabinet. I rarely leave the medicine cabinet open. I could not understand how
the mirror could have been freed from the fastener. It was not possible. I did
not understand. The mirror did not break, but it left me with an uneasy feeling
for some time.
Yet another time, I was working late at an early childhood
center. I was alone in the planning room working on the computer. I was likely
typing labels of toddler names and activities to display in the classroom or
child development portfolios. I noticed that a message was being displayed on
the computer screen. It said something like “Aren’t you staying too late?” with
my name included. I was startled and could not understand how this was
possible. I did not see the keyboard move and it was not connected to the
Internet.
I was staying quite late on a regular basis and had won
awards for working with and on behalf of infants, children, and their families
in educational and hospital settings. I was disturbed at this point, but not
enough. I told a coworker what happened, and she showed signs of being scared.
I wish now that I had been more scared. I was not scared because I did not
believe in evil spirits or satan. In fact, I did not know the story of the
Bible or lucifer. I was very spiritually naïve. I was of a new age mindset, but
not part of any group. I was exploring the spirit world mostly on my own, with few
boundaries. I felt safe, so I assumed that I was safe.
I was a kind, caring person so I expected that to be the type
of spirit that I would attract in the spirit world. People of the new age
recommend focusing on the light, the positive to stay in a healthy spiritual
communication with the spirit world. I did this, so I had little fear. I
continued the same path.
One night, I had a dream of a horrific creature who was
eating people alive and was as big as a whale. During the dream, I heard a calm
voice tell me that the person (being eaten) used drugs. I woke feeling
physically and emotionally shaken. It was beyond horrible. Years later, I saw
that same creature depicted in a painting by the artist Giotto di Bondone
called "The Last Judgement". Seeing this image was surreal
because I had dreamt of the actual scene within a painting that was created in
the 1300s.
My spiritually lost Christian boyfriend did not know all that
had happened, but he did know that I was using the pendulum and visiting
fortune tellers and mediums when I would travel to see my mother who would
arrange these services. My mother would send me gifts of idolatry throughout
the year. Neither of us knew the meaning of idolatry, we simply found certain
items to be aesthetically pleasing.
I do recall visiting the gift store where we would have our
fortunes told near my hometown of Eden. I remember asking the staff what to do
to protect myself from unkind spirits. They recommended “praying” for
protection before using the pendulum, focusing on the white light. I began
doing this and somehow my prayers began with “Dear Heavenly Father” and ended
in the words “In Jesus’ name. Amen.” This is because I grew up around Mormons,
and that is how they pray. I had no other concept of prayer. I laugh now
because I realize that Jesus is willing to go anywhere to bring us to Him. He
responded.
Jesus had something to say about it all. I believed that
Jesus was a wise prophet. I believed that Jesus was only a man who had passed
on generations before. While using the pendulum one day, Jesus spoke through me
to me. He told me that he knew all the trauma that I had gone through in my
life. His tears manifested through me as he shared a very intense moment of
connection with me. This had never happened to me before. I had never
manifested a spirit in this way. I do not recall asking for this, but I realize
now it is because I prayed for protection before using the pendulum in His name.
He left our conversation by saying “Please, stop what you are doing.”
I did not understand why He would ask me to stop using the
pendulum. I had such a strong attachment to it. It was my way of contacting
grandpa, and God. It was my way of gaining information and understanding from
spirits regarding the spirit world. Why would I stop? My emotional attachment
was too strong. I did not stop, but I was left questioning about all that Jesus
had said. I had nobody that I felt comfortable telling this to. Who would
believe that I spoke with Jesus through the pendulum?
I continued to pray for God’s protection in Jesus’ name every
time I used the pendulum. I used the pendulum daily, for years. As I continued
this path, more happenings occurred beyond what I can share with you at this
moment. Eventually, I was craving communication and connection with God so
intensely, that I recall saying “God, speak through me, to me”. He did. I now
realize that Jesus had planted the seed of understanding that this phenomenon
was possible. Before my interaction with Jesus, I did not think about such
things.
At that point in time, my concept was that the Father alone
is God. The Father spoke to me, through me. He asked what I wanted from Him. I
was so incredibly in love with God the Father. I was giddy in speaking with
Him. I was amazed that I could contact Him in this way. I told him a list of
requests, including saving my boyfriend and his friends. I also asked Him if I
could help save the world! I said this VERY passionately. I so much wanted to
help suffering infants and children in the world from a humanist perspective. I
believed in Maslow’s hierarchy of needs theory. I believed that now I could
reach self-actualization with the deep connection with God Himself! Now, there
was no stopping this work of saving babies through the fields of prevention and
early intervention. It seemed so logical. Now I laugh at how lost I was. I was
Nineveh. I did not know my right hand from my left regarding the spirit world.
I felt a spirit manifest me to say “God, make me a vessel of
you.” I had never heard this way of speaking before, but I agreed with it
wholeheartedly. I also asked for wisdom, which I did not know that I needed.
The request was guided through the Holy Spirit, but I did not know it at that time.
God’s response to my passionate requests regarding saving the
world was “Through you”. I did not fully understand or love this because I was
truly hoping for God to fix it and make it simple, but I accepted it. He gave
me a light vision of being brought down before being raised up. I saw myself in
a scholarly role with great ideas for helping these children, but then I saw
myself going through much suffering to then come to that role with true wisdom
and reverence.
The Lord asked me if I chose psychology or God. I whole
heartedly said “God!” because if there is a God who created everything then
anything is possible. Why would I choose psychology over God? Ironically, years
before, I studied psychology at the university and worked at a children’s
behavioral health clinic. I was so pro-psychology that I recall telling my
friend that there is no God while we were sitting together at the university
library. I was a kind-hearted, spiritually lost humanist. She cried, and I did
not understand why. I could never have taken that position again because I was
now speaking with God whom I did not believe in before. I was in love with God.
Whatever He said, that is what is true.
At that point, I only knew God the Father to be true. I knew in
my heart that is who I was communicating with. He stayed with me through locution
for approximately one day. Then, He said “I want to introduce you to someone.
This is Jesus.” A spirit with a different voice began talking. I know this to
be Jesus who spent what seemed like one day with me via locution. I was amazed
at his kind nature. On what seemed like the third day, the voices came together
as one, and they have not separate since.
At that time, I did not understand why the voices did not
separate. I was concerned and I kept asking “Where is Heavenly Father?” and “Where
is Jesus?” I missed being with them individually. Now I understand that the Lord
allowed me to get to know each person of the Trinity, and then the Trinity as
one. I continue to hear God’s voice, but it is only one voice. Three in one
through the Holy Spirit.
Prior to this experience, I had much difficulty in understanding
the Christian concept of the Trinity. I suppose I needed extra help like St.
Thomas, the skeptic. I am the sort that needed to see it to understand and
believe it. Glory be to God, he met me where I was at. Shortly after this experience,
I began hearing the Holy Spirit say “Purgatory”. Since then, I have had a
challenging existence of being able to sense God, the adversary, and the
spiritual war. I learned that I came from a Catholic family, but my Basque-American
great grandmother was molested in the Catholic Church. My Spanish-Basque-American
grandfather told my mother that the Catholic Church is true, but he showed no
signs of living a Christian life. My parents did not believe in organized religion,
and so I was left spiritually lost (not knowing where I came from).
I have been taught very much through the spiritual war behind
the veil. I would not wish my experiences on anyone, but the fruit is that I
was a spiritual witness to the idolatry that was brought into the Vatican and
Rome through the Amazonian Synod of 2019. In December 2019, my boss sent me to
Vatican as a reward for being a loyal, hard-working employee. He intended it as
a thank you gift. At the same time, he took his family to Argentina on
vacation. I found this to be an interesting sign that the Lord may want me to go
to Vatican since Pope Francis was born in Argentina and I had witnessed
idolatry in Vatican. I knew about idolatry and the demonic spirits attached to
it because the Lord gifted me with the ability to sense such phenomena.
While visiting the Carmelite Church in Rome, I heard St. Michael
call out the “pacha” legion that was and likely is attached to Our Holy Roman
Catholic Church. I tried to inform the Pope, several clergy and Church staff,
but it did not seem to make much impact. St. Michael manifested me to share the
message with an elderly priest at the Vatican parish in the confessional. St.
Michael repeatedly told him through me through the Holy Spirit, “The Lord is
angry! The Lord is angry!” The priest seemed to believe and responded by pleading
“Does the Lord not have mercy?!?”
In December of 2019, shortly after I arrived back in my home
country, the Corona Virus outbreak began. Early in the year 2020, St. Michael
through the Holy Spirit revealed to me that the “pacha” legion is also attached
to my local Cathedral. This implies that the “pacha” idolatry curse of 2019 has
infected our Churches throughout the world. Currently in 2020, in addition to a
world pandemic, we are also experiencing violence and anarchy regarding the
topic of racism within our country. One group is calling for the destruction of
many Holy Christian images, and a number of Catholics have been physically attacked.
This was not our situation during 2019. We are living a curse.
I was informed by the Holy Spirit that Pope Francis needs to
apologize to both God and man in a formal way, acknowledging his mistake of allowing
idolatry into God’s house before the entire world. Pope Francis is being called
to bring back the St. Michael prayer and the exorcism prayer of Pope Leo XIII
to all parishes throughout the world. Please pray for this intention through
Mary’s intercession.
As of late December 2019, there were 4,000 curses attached to
the Vatican and Our Church. These were brought in by Popes, clerics, free masons,
and others. God is angry and we are currently experiencing his wrath through curse.
God has mercy, but He teaches for the eternity. We must follow the simple Commandments
of God. We must repent and renew through Our Lord Jesus Christ who suffered and
died for us and was risen from the dead. We must ask for intercession from Our
Lady through the Rosary. We must forgive and pray for the spiritual well-being
of Pope Francis, all clergy, and Holy Mother Church. Fasting and penance is in
order.
We must endure our sufferings with grace and dignity with an
eternal perspective. Avoid all bitterness and despair. God will renew us once
the lessons have been learned and the situation remedied. Please look within
your own personal life and ask the Lord how you can improve your spiritual existence.
Destroy all idolatry and media that is offensive to the Lord. Avoid all
spiritual complacency. Pray every day. Repent and forgive often and know that
God can save even the most fallen soul. Pray for conversion and reversion. Some
of our most offensive sinners can become our greatest saints for the Glory of
God. God is able.
Lord Jesus, please forgive us. Deliver us. Manifest all
creation. Please save us from ourselves. We know not what we do. In your Blessed,
Holy name. Amen
My
little bosses. They are adorable, cunning and witty little handfuls whom I love
very much. They are also victims within this spiritual war, and they put me
at risk of diabolic suffering. I am a spiritually sensitive mystic who works
with infants and young children. I am a witness of the spiritual war within the
lives of little people within our world. It is rare to find a job working with
a devout Catholic family, so I have been working with families who are
spiritually lost. I see and experience their demons beyond what I would ever
want for anyone else to endure. It is survival to work with these families, but
it is also spiritual work to give witness to the reality of the spiritual world
behind the veil.
I have worked with many infants and
children since my spiritual awakening and mystical gifts. I had been working
with children for several years prior to my spiritual enlightenment and earthly
purgation. My experience and understandings were quite different prior to my
conversion and gift. Prior to my conversion, I was quite focused on psychology,
early intervention and prevention within the early childhood field. Now I have
no choice but to focus more on the spiritual roots of challenges within infancy
and early childhood because I have witnessed several spirits within many
families and early childhood environments. These spirits have affected the behaviors
of little ones in ways that may be considered diagnosable or easily analyzed by
the world. The manifestations became psychological/behavioral, but the roots
were spiritual.
These ideas may be difficult or
confusing for people of the world; easily judged by many. They may be labelled
as fictitious or untrustworthy. I wish that I didn’t feel weighed down by such
judgements, but it does weary me at times. Regardless, the work continues
because Jesus kindly and directly asked me to tell my story and so I do. God
bless those who believe, and God heal and enlighten those who do not. You will
all believe at some point within your eternity. Believing early on will be most
merciful to oneself. These are difficult lessons when learned in the ways that
I have learned. It is easier to learn vicariously and prudently. Learning
through personal interaction with demons (i.e. within purgatory) is suffering
and hellish at times. By not following the laws and ways of God, we bring these
spiritual roots of psychological/behavioral disturbance into the lives of
infants and young children (as well as to those who care for them).
I am blessed to have the freedom to write,
speak and express truth. I have a voice and I am just beginning to use it. Not
everyone can use their voice. Many people are silenced in various ways. I also
have the freedom to live and express my religious beliefs and experiences. I
felt called to the religious life, but I know that the telling of my story may
be put at risk. The rigorous monastic schedule would challenge me in the
telling of my story, which is my primary spiritual calling. I have been given
truth by Our Lord and He has asked for me to speak it, so I live a Holy life in
the world to retain my ability to speak and advocate for Him and His Holy
creation. This is not easy as I experience torment from unholy spiritual environments.
The world is not a nice place behind the veil in this war. I have endured much
torment from the sins of others, but I suppose that is how I learned not to
sin. It has been a difficult learning, but a blessing to a narrow, Holy path.
The fruit will be eternal peace.
Use the voice that God has given to
you. Express it through art, music, writing, speaking and any other means
possible. Do not leave this world in silence. “Speak (Lord), for your servant
is listening.” (Samuel 3:10) Be a vessel of Holiness within whatever state of
life you have been given. Complacency is not of God. Be willing to die
(socially or bodily) for the expression of God’s truth. Martyrdom is a gift and
is our highest spiritual calling. Be willing to leave this world with an
exclamation point of truth. Be an open witness and advocate of God’s truth.
“(T)ruth will set you free” (John 8:32) and peace in eternity is forever for
those who please the Most High. Avoid all bitterness and despair. Know His Mercy,
Forgiveness, Glory and Justice. Know that He wins this war. Remember patience
and fortitude. Know that virtues are everything in the eyes of the Lord and proceed
accordingly. Learn to fear the Lord which truly means learn to fear offending
and being cut off from the Lord. He is our source of Eternal Life and Joy. He
is Love for those who Love Him by closely following Him. Love Him. When you
know Him as I do, you will naturally Love Him. He is Lovable. 😊
I am a witness and fruit of God’s
mercy and justice. Prior to my awakening, I made mistakes that led me to the
denial of my creator and opened doors to many demons within the lives of the infants
and young children that I worked with. I was spiritually naïve with very great
intentions. I was hell-bound if I did not change my ways. Fortunately, the Lord
had a way of teaching and saving me from myself. It was a difficult way, but
merciful for my eternity. He gave me an early purgation to teach me what I was
attached to and what is true. His Truth has been setting me free.
You cannot deny Holy Catholicism once
you experience the war behind the veil. You cannot avoid being abused once you
are face to face with your own demons within purgation. He introduced me to the
demons that I had brought in. He introduced me to the demons that I grew up
with. He introduced me to Himself, His Mother and many Saints within Heaven. He
helped me to overcome these curses that existed from my own misdeeds and that
of my family and ancestors. He was merciful to offer this purgation because
many people would say that I didn’t qualify for purgatory because I used the
pendulum for many years and denied Our Lord. I didn’t know that it was of the
occult. I didn’t know the true meaning of the occult. I didn’t know the true
meaning of Catholicism or the teachings within the scriptures. It was before
the time of easy access to the Internet and information. It was something that
I learned from my mother and other spiritually lost people. They were kind and
spiritually naïve. Their intentions were good, but their actions were hell-bound.
Over my lifetime, I had witnessed much
scandal and hypocrisy within Christianity. I had no desire to attach to scandal
and hypocrisy, so I had no desire to become a Christian. I respected Christians
but kept them at a distance. I made sure not to take the Lord’s name in vain. I
presented myself conservatively and honorably but did not want to become part of
a group unless I believed in it deeply within my soul. I am not the type of
person to join for social or external reasons. I would only join for truth, and
I did not see it within the people.
I was born into a lost family but didn’t
realize that Catholicism was within my lineage. My Great Grandmother was molested
within the Catholic Church. As a result, she did not pass her Catholicism on to
my family. Unknowingly, we lived with the Satanic residue of sexual abuse and
scandal. People learn to distrust the Church and still need to fill the void
where God should have been. They seek and Satan secretly guides good hearted, naïve
people who become hell-bound if it were not for the Mercy of Our Lord. But know
this, Justice was very much a part of my awakening. Purgation cannot be avoided,
or the lessons will not be learned. Hell is not to be repeated within Heaven,
so purgation cannot be avoided when a spirit falls so far from God through the
occult, even when the people involved are indirect victims of Church abuse and
seeking what they perceive to be godly truth through their lost spiritual
methods. Our Church leaders are in serious spiritual danger when they allow
their flock to be abused and/or misguided to the point of mortal sin. They are
truly diabolically disoriented when they overlook such matters. They are hell-bound
and need God’s Mercy through Our Lady’s intercession. The Rosary is their Hope.
Satan had a plan against me, but God
prevailed. God revealed Himself to me and sent me on a path of earthly
purgation and mystical learning. I went through Heaven and Hell and Heaven for
many years. I had very little support and very much spiritual neglect from the
clergy of today. I endured broken systems in the face of diabolical torment and
torture. I learned that God will help the most abused and neglected in the most
beautiful and mystical ways imaginable. My story is beautiful, only because of
Him. One day I will fully express it through art, film, writing and possibly
music. God is beautiful.
Be wise by withholding judgement and
asking Jesus for truth through His mercy. My writings are truth through God’s
mercy for you. They are the fruit of my suffering. The fruit has led to my
personal salvation and sanctification which is always progressing. I am not
complete. I am becoming complete through Our Lord. Blessings to all in Christ
Jesus through the intercession of Our Blessed Virgin Mary, Mother of God. St. Pio and St. Michael, please pray for
us. St. Therese of the Child Jesus, St. Teresa of Avila, and St. John of the
Cross please pray for us. St. Catherine of Sienna and St. Joan of Arc, please
pray for us. Heaven through Our Lord Jesus Christ, please pray and intercede
for us.
Late one evening, as I laid in bed
reading a prayer book, I looked up to see a pink sphere (the size of a child’s
ball) hovering above my bed. It was beautiful and gave me peace. I looked away
for just a moment and looked back to see that it was gone. Immediately, I asked
God to bring it back. I sensed that it was from the Lord, but I didn't know
what it was. He didn't bring it back but guided me to see that it looked just
like the bead from my pink Rosary on my nightstand. It was the bead used to
meditate upon the mysteries as opposed to the more oval shaped bead used to
pray the Hail Mary. God has guided me to understand the importance of the
Rosary through these types of mystical experiences. I have no doubt that the
Rosary is God's preference. Glory be to God. :)
I know the importance of the Rosary
and how it can heal a soul. While at the Cathedral in Seattle, I often see
people suffering and spiritually dying on the streets. They need God who is
their only hope. I have many tears for them. They used to be someone's baby.
They used to be pure innocence and are now cursed and staggering toward eternal
death. They desperately need prayer and God's mercy.
Many years ago, prior to my conversion to Catholicism, I had a dream of a horrific
creature who was eating people alive and was as big as a whale. During the
dream, I heard the Lord calmly tell me that the person (being eaten) used drugs.
I woke feeling physically and emotionally shaken. It was beyond horrible. Years
later, I saw that same creature depicted in a painting by the artist Giotto
di Bondone called "The Last Judgement". Seeing this image
was surreal because I had dreamt of the actual scene within a painting that was
created in the 1300s at a time when I didn't know much about Christianity. I grew up in Utah, and was quite naïve regarding Catholicism. This experience became part of my conversion story.
Painting: The Last Judgement
Artist: Giotto di Bondone
Later, I was guided by the Holy
Spirit to the Rosary and told that the many people who are dying from drug
abuse in Seattle NEED for us to pray the Rosary to save their souls. Also, I
understand that we are on the cusp of end times as evidenced by the comments from
the Holy Spirit regarding the drug use of the person who was suffering. A 13th
century painting is depicting the eternal outcome of people who live near me
and are dying from mortal sins that are happening today. The Rosary is critical in these times. I am
very drawn to Rosary Ministry because of these types of issues. Many people
have forgotten and/or underestimate the Rosary or prayer in general, but God
wins so I have much hope that the Lord is giving us the information, passion
and tools to remedy our current crisis through Him. It is beautiful that the Lord guided me to Him in this way, because I am now the leader of a Healing Rosary Ministry in Seattle. He called me before I knew who He is. He had a plan to save me and many others before I believed that He existed. God has a plan. Please know this. There is hope. :)
