Saturday, July 4, 2020

Free Us O Lord! Testimony of Our Current Sufferings.






Written on Father's Day and US Independence Day 2020.

I am sharing my experiences with you so that you may believe and share it with others to save souls. I made grave mistakes many years ago. I unknowingly attached to occult practices, including divination. I did not know the laws or character of God. I did not know God. I also did not know that what I was practicing was from the occult. What I did know is that what I was doing was taught to me by my mother, and it was an effective way of communicating with spirits from the other side. Prior to using these practices, I did not believe in God. I only believed in science and what we can sense and perceive in the world. This abruptly changed once I was able to talk with spirits.


Over time, I started experiencing hauntings of various sorts. I did not understand that what I was experiencing was curse. For example, one day I came home from work and my personology book had fallen from an extremely high shelf near the ceiling and onto the floor. My cat had scratched the cover repeatedly. It was such an extreme sight. The cover was very damaged as if my cat had fought another animal. I was very disheartened as I like to keep my belongings nice. It was strange, but I did not associate it with curse.


Another time, I was reading my personology book to a friend who was visiting. I was so amazed at how accurate this book was describing people and relationships in my life that I had to share this “wisdom”. As I was reading the book, a large mirror in the bathroom began to fall and made a loud sound. I went into the bathroom to see that it had somehow been freed from the secure fastener and was leaning precariously on the edge of an open medicine cabinet. I rarely leave the medicine cabinet open. I could not understand how the mirror could have been freed from the fastener. It was not possible. I did not understand. The mirror did not break, but it left me with an uneasy feeling for some time.


Yet another time, I was working late at an early childhood center. I was alone in the planning room working on the computer. I was likely typing labels of toddler names and activities to display in the classroom or child development portfolios. I noticed that a message was being displayed on the computer screen. It said something like “Aren’t you staying too late?” with my name included. I was startled and could not understand how this was possible. I did not see the keyboard move and it was not connected to the Internet.


I was staying quite late on a regular basis and had won awards for working with and on behalf of infants, children, and their families in educational and hospital settings. I was disturbed at this point, but not enough. I told a coworker what happened, and she showed signs of being scared. I wish now that I had been more scared. I was not scared because I did not believe in evil spirits or satan. In fact, I did not know the story of the Bible or lucifer. I was very spiritually naïve. I was of a new age mindset, but not part of any group. I was exploring the spirit world mostly on my own, with few boundaries. I felt safe, so I assumed that I was safe.


I was a kind, caring person so I expected that to be the type of spirit that I would attract in the spirit world. People of the new age recommend focusing on the light, the positive to stay in a healthy spiritual communication with the spirit world. I did this, so I had little fear. I continued the same path.


One night, I had a dream of a horrific creature who was eating people alive and was as big as a whale. During the dream, I heard a calm voice tell me that the person (being eaten) used drugs. I woke feeling physically and emotionally shaken. It was beyond horrible. Years later, I saw that same creature depicted in a painting by the artist Giotto di Bondone called "The Last Judgement". Seeing this image was surreal because I had dreamt of the actual scene within a painting that was created in the 1300s.

My spiritually lost Christian boyfriend did not know all that had happened, but he did know that I was using the pendulum and visiting fortune tellers and mediums when I would travel to see my mother who would arrange these services. My mother would send me gifts of idolatry throughout the year. Neither of us knew the meaning of idolatry, we simply found certain items to be aesthetically pleasing.

I do recall visiting the gift store where we would have our fortunes told near my hometown of Eden. I remember asking the staff what to do to protect myself from unkind spirits. They recommended “praying” for protection before using the pendulum, focusing on the white light. I began doing this and somehow my prayers began with “Dear Heavenly Father” and ended in the words “In Jesus’ name. Amen.” This is because I grew up around Mormons, and that is how they pray. I had no other concept of prayer. I laugh now because I realize that Jesus is willing to go anywhere to bring us to Him. He responded.

Jesus had something to say about it all. I believed that Jesus was a wise prophet. I believed that Jesus was only a man who had passed on generations before. While using the pendulum one day, Jesus spoke through me to me. He told me that he knew all the trauma that I had gone through in my life. His tears manifested through me as he shared a very intense moment of connection with me. This had never happened to me before. I had never manifested a spirit in this way. I do not recall asking for this, but I realize now it is because I prayed for protection before using the pendulum in His name. He left our conversation by saying “Please, stop what you are doing.”

I did not understand why He would ask me to stop using the pendulum. I had such a strong attachment to it. It was my way of contacting grandpa, and God. It was my way of gaining information and understanding from spirits regarding the spirit world. Why would I stop? My emotional attachment was too strong. I did not stop, but I was left questioning about all that Jesus had said. I had nobody that I felt comfortable telling this to. Who would believe that I spoke with Jesus through the pendulum?

I continued to pray for God’s protection in Jesus’ name every time I used the pendulum. I used the pendulum daily, for years. As I continued this path, more happenings occurred beyond what I can share with you at this moment. Eventually, I was craving communication and connection with God so intensely, that I recall saying “God, speak through me, to me”. He did. I now realize that Jesus had planted the seed of understanding that this phenomenon was possible. Before my interaction with Jesus, I did not think about such things.

At that point in time, my concept was that the Father alone is God. The Father spoke to me, through me. He asked what I wanted from Him. I was so incredibly in love with God the Father. I was giddy in speaking with Him. I was amazed that I could contact Him in this way. I told him a list of requests, including saving my boyfriend and his friends. I also asked Him if I could help save the world! I said this VERY passionately. I so much wanted to help suffering infants and children in the world from a humanist perspective. I believed in Maslow’s hierarchy of needs theory. I believed that now I could reach self-actualization with the deep connection with God Himself! Now, there was no stopping this work of saving babies through the fields of prevention and early intervention. It seemed so logical. Now I laugh at how lost I was. I was Nineveh. I did not know my right hand from my left regarding the spirit world.

I felt a spirit manifest me to say “God, make me a vessel of you.” I had never heard this way of speaking before, but I agreed with it wholeheartedly. I also asked for wisdom, which I did not know that I needed. The request was guided through the Holy Spirit, but I did not know it at that time.  

God’s response to my passionate requests regarding saving the world was “Through you”. I did not fully understand or love this because I was truly hoping for God to fix it and make it simple, but I accepted it. He gave me a light vision of being brought down before being raised up. I saw myself in a scholarly role with great ideas for helping these children, but then I saw myself going through much suffering to then come to that role with true wisdom and reverence.

The Lord asked me if I chose psychology or God. I whole heartedly said “God!” because if there is a God who created everything then anything is possible. Why would I choose psychology over God? Ironically, years before, I studied psychology at the university and worked at a children’s behavioral health clinic. I was so pro-psychology that I recall telling my friend that there is no God while we were sitting together at the university library. I was a kind-hearted, spiritually lost humanist. She cried, and I did not understand why. I could never have taken that position again because I was now speaking with God whom I did not believe in before. I was in love with God. Whatever He said, that is what is true.

At that point, I only knew God the Father to be true. I knew in my heart that is who I was communicating with. He stayed with me through locution for approximately one day. Then, He said “I want to introduce you to someone. This is Jesus.” A spirit with a different voice began talking. I know this to be Jesus who spent what seemed like one day with me via locution. I was amazed at his kind nature. On what seemed like the third day, the voices came together as one, and they have not separate since.

At that time, I did not understand why the voices did not separate. I was concerned and I kept asking “Where is Heavenly Father?” and “Where is Jesus?” I missed being with them individually. Now I understand that the Lord allowed me to get to know each person of the Trinity, and then the Trinity as one. I continue to hear God’s voice, but it is only one voice. Three in one through the Holy Spirit.

Prior to this experience, I had much difficulty in understanding the Christian concept of the Trinity. I suppose I needed extra help like St. Thomas, the skeptic. I am the sort that needed to see it to understand and believe it. Glory be to God, he met me where I was at. Shortly after this experience, I began hearing the Holy Spirit say “Purgatory”. Since then, I have had a challenging existence of being able to sense God, the adversary, and the spiritual war. I learned that I came from a Catholic family, but my Basque-American great grandmother was molested in the Catholic Church. My Spanish-Basque-American grandfather told my mother that the Catholic Church is true, but he showed no signs of living a Christian life. My parents did not believe in organized religion, and so I was left spiritually lost (not knowing where I came from).

I have been taught very much through the spiritual war behind the veil. I would not wish my experiences on anyone, but the fruit is that I was a spiritual witness to the idolatry that was brought into the Vatican and Rome through the Amazonian Synod of 2019. In December 2019, my boss sent me to Vatican as a reward for being a loyal, hard-working employee. He intended it as a thank you gift. At the same time, he took his family to Argentina on vacation. I found this to be an interesting sign that the Lord may want me to go to Vatican since Pope Francis was born in Argentina and I had witnessed idolatry in Vatican. I knew about idolatry and the demonic spirits attached to it because the Lord gifted me with the ability to sense such phenomena.

While visiting the Carmelite Church in Rome, I heard St. Michael call out the “pacha” legion that was and likely is attached to Our Holy Roman Catholic Church. I tried to inform the Pope, several clergy and Church staff, but it did not seem to make much impact. St. Michael manifested me to share the message with an elderly priest at the Vatican parish in the confessional. St. Michael repeatedly told him through me through the Holy Spirit, “The Lord is angry! The Lord is angry!” The priest seemed to believe and responded by pleading “Does the Lord not have mercy?!?”

In December of 2019, shortly after I arrived back in my home country, the Corona Virus outbreak began. Early in the year 2020, St. Michael through the Holy Spirit revealed to me that the “pacha” legion is also attached to my local Cathedral. This implies that the “pacha” idolatry curse of 2019 has infected our Churches throughout the world. Currently in 2020, in addition to a world pandemic, we are also experiencing violence and anarchy regarding the topic of racism within our country. One group is calling for the destruction of many Holy Christian images, and a number of Catholics have been physically attacked. This was not our situation during 2019. We are living a curse.

I was informed by the Holy Spirit that Pope Francis needs to apologize to both God and man in a formal way, acknowledging his mistake of allowing idolatry into God’s house before the entire world. Pope Francis is being called to bring back the St. Michael prayer and the exorcism prayer of Pope Leo XIII to all parishes throughout the world. Please pray for this intention through Mary’s intercession.

As of late December 2019, there were 4,000 curses attached to the Vatican and Our Church. These were brought in by Popes, clerics, free masons, and others. God is angry and we are currently experiencing his wrath through curse. God has mercy, but He teaches for the eternity. We must follow the simple Commandments of God. We must repent and renew through Our Lord Jesus Christ who suffered and died for us and was risen from the dead. We must ask for intercession from Our Lady through the Rosary. We must forgive and pray for the spiritual well-being of Pope Francis, all clergy, and Holy Mother Church. Fasting and penance is in order.

We must endure our sufferings with grace and dignity with an eternal perspective. Avoid all bitterness and despair. God will renew us once the lessons have been learned and the situation remedied. Please look within your own personal life and ask the Lord how you can improve your spiritual existence. Destroy all idolatry and media that is offensive to the Lord. Avoid all spiritual complacency. Pray every day. Repent and forgive often and know that God can save even the most fallen soul. Pray for conversion and reversion. Some of our most offensive sinners can become our greatest saints for the Glory of God. God is able.

Lord Jesus, please forgive us. Deliver us. Manifest all creation. Please save us from ourselves. We know not what we do. In your Blessed, Holy name. Amen

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